A long time ago, in a life far, far away, I used to be Allie…
You can check out her story HERE.
However, it wasn’t a piece of corn that snapped me out of The Dark Pit Of Numbness like it did for her. It was a Jeep wreck that almost took my life. The accident literally peeled chucks of skin off my face. It left me in a hospital, standing in front of a mirror, face-to-face with a woman I didn’t recognize.
And, the armor she’d spent a lifetime creating.
“So, now what?”, she asked.
I’ve dubbed that moment “the-day-life-woke-me-up-with-a-two-by-four”, as it set me on an inner journey to reconnect with my true authentic self…
…and, with the little girl inside me I’d stuffed away and left behind a lifetime ago.
The reality of my hollow-feeling pre-Jeep wreck existence used to be horrifying to admit to myself, never mind speak it out loud. Or, share in cyber space. (gasp!) Which is what makes me feel such intense appreciation and admiration for Allie.
Her courageous (and, insanely hilarious) act of vulnerability articulate feelings so many people are going through yet don’t know how to express. Or, might be too embarrassed to admit. I am beyond humbled that there are strong courageous women like her who bring to light what so many feel they have to sit alone in the dark with.
That used to be me.
I feel blessed to be out of The Dark Pit Of Numbness. And, yes, even utterly grateful for the experience. It’s allowed me to reconnect with who I am, understand who I’m not, and rediscover who I want to be.
It’s made me realize that each of us has a story to tell. And, that I’m finally ready to tell mine.
This post is dedicated to Billy Beck III and Gwen Des Vallieres for being there through my yuckiest, downward spirally moments. You are angels that walk this earth. It feels SO GOOD to be alive today. I wouldn’t be here without you. And, that would suck! ;)
Thank you to my family at The Bold Academy for teaching me how to f*ck mediocrity and reclaim my voice. Your relentless pursuit of self-love and authenticity makes my little ol’ heart bust out into a perpetual happy dance. <3